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    what_if commented on a secret:   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    I don’t even know myself, that’s the problem, it’s just annoying me knowing that somethings not right, and I can’t fix it

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    Secret posted by what_if   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    *most of the time

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      thepuppet · 1 month, 1 week ago

      Relate.

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      gift20 · 4 weeks, 1 day ago

      lucyoumar@yahoo.com

      Hello dear

      How are you doing today, i hope every things is OK with you as its my

      pleasure to contact you after viewing your profile in this site(http://secretzen.com) which really interest in me having communication with you,if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what will happen in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other OK,

      here is my email. i will be waiting to hear from you,

      your new friend Lucy.

      (Id) lucyoumar@yahoo.com

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    Secret posted by what_if   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    Do you ever wonder why Im laughing with

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      whiteelephant · 1 month, 1 week ago

      completely relate. i hope you feel better soon!

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        shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

        Here for you hon, i hope your friends are supportive of you, everyone here is right behind you :) You dont have to keep it all inside or pretend youre okay :) xx

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      Savage · 1 month, 1 week ago

      Like Wednesday? I’m sure most of us knew you were thinking of things, I guess just not what. But if you need to talk about it I’m here and I’m sure the others are too

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        what_if · 1 month, 1 week ago

        I don’t even know myself, that’s the problem, it’s just annoying me knowing that somethings not right, and I can’t fix it

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          Savage · 1 month, 1 week ago

          We can try figure it out though, then it’s a lot easier try fix. You don’t have to be alone or anything, we’re all here for you (:

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      deepwater · 1 month, 1 week ago

      completely and utterly relate <3

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    Secret posted by what_if   2 months ago · View

    behind my smile is everything youll never understand

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    what_if commented on a secret:   2 months ago · View

    I just don’t know whether he’ll make me happier, as with my boyfriend for me it’s kind of gone back to the just friends zone, and also I’ve got soo much work to do atm and he wants me to spend basically all of my free time with him. Whereas this guy goes to my college and I won’t have to go out of my way to see him, and it won’t feel like a chore. And then I can focus more on college work in my free time when I’ll need to. But it’ll hurt him soo much if I finished him :/

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    what_if commented on a secret:   2 months, 1 week ago · View

    no*

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    Secret posted by what_if   2 months, 1 week ago · View

    It couldve been the perfect night our perfect first kiss. But I couldnt. Im with him.

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      what_if · 2 months, 1 week ago

      no*

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      Annie · 2 months ago

      It’s a good thing you didn’t, it would have caused problems in your relationship. I hope you can sort things out. x

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      shannonxx · 2 months ago

      Well done on resisting :) x

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      what_if · 2 months ago

      I just don’t know whether he’ll make me happier, as with my boyfriend for me it’s kind of gone back to the just friends zone, and also I’ve got soo much work to do atm and he wants me to spend basically all of my free time with him. Whereas this guy goes to my college and I won’t have to go out of my way to see him, and it won’t feel like a chore. And then I can focus more on college work in my free time when I’ll need to. But it’ll hurt him soo much if I finished him :/

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    what_if commented on a secret:   4 months, 3 weeks ago · View

    Advice please someone?

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    Secret posted by what_if   4 months, 3 weeks ago · View

    But it wont change its decision on who it likes. I really want to like you. Youre such a genuine lovely guy. But my hearts just not in it. Im sorry. Im sorry I kissed you. Im sorry that Im probably going to break youre heart because of this. Im sorry. I just wanted to see you happy for once.

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      what_if · 4 months, 3 weeks ago

      Advice please someone?

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      Atem. · 4 months, 3 weeks ago

      Your heart doesn’t decide who it likes, it’s your brain that does. Your brain controls your heart and you can’t tell your heart what to do because then you’d look like a crazy person.

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    what_if commented on a secret:   4 months, 4 weeks ago · View

    Mmmmmm it’s lovely, it’s the only beer I like too :)

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    what_if commented on a secret:   5 months ago · View

    Relate :/

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months ago · View

    But I dont think Im going to stop anytime soon. Actually scrap the think. I know Im not going to stop any time soon.

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      hatesbloodylife · 5 months ago

      same here :/

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      shannonxx · 5 months ago

      You’re both beautiful and don’t need to hate yourselves although it is hard sometimes to love yourself. I wish you all the best and just remember, you are special and valuable and above all, amazingly beautiful and original :) xx

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months ago · View

    I just want someone to hold me close. Hold me close and tell me everythings going to be alright. That theres nothing that they want me to change. That they like me just the way I am. That they will always be there for me. And that Im all they need. But what am I thinking. this kind of stuff only exists in films books and fantasy. All I want is to be held. Is that too much to ask for?

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months ago · View

    Pretty much sums me up.

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      imnuggetface · 5 months ago

      Penis. That is all.

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      am_i_alone · 5 months ago

      i so relate to this…

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      daeara · 5 months ago

      God, do I ever know this feeling. It’s gnawing, it’s edging, it’s excruciatingly painful, and it feels like there’s no relief.

      I can’t give you the answers, because I’m still there.
      What I can tell you is that you’re not alone. Not by a long shot. <3

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      smellybottom · 5 months ago

      amen brother

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months ago · View

    I hate having all my siblings home for christmas. It reminds me of how much a reject I am in this family. All they do is pick at my faults and take the piss out of me for being socially awkward. Well at least I make the effort to try and talk to them even when my room and my laptop are my comfort zones. They made me this way. Made me the social fuck up that I am. All because theyd torment me when I was younger and make me not want to socialise.

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months ago · View

    Yes I am socially awkward. Thanks for stating the obvious. It wont change the fact that I am.

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    what_if commented on a secret:   5 months, 1 week ago · View

    He’s not a very close friend though, we don’t talk everyday, and I only realised I still had feelings for him when I was at a party the other weekend and we talked for a while and ended up kissing and giving each other lovebites. He did kiss other girls that night and I kissed other guys, but they didn’t compare to him. He even bothered to text me the morning after, which shows he does somewhat care. But he’s friendly with everyone especially the girls; but he’s not a player, he used to be but isn’t anymore. I just don’t know how to feel or handle this situation.

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months, 1 week ago · View

    Im scared because youre basically perfect for me. Because Ive liked you for years. And I havent felt this way about someone for about a year now. I dont want to mess it up before it even starts. Even though I will by not talking to you because I dont want to be a nuisance and annoy you. When I do make the effort I always just end up making a fool out of myself trying too hard scaring them off. I dont know what to do to try and make it happen or let him know.

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      disturbia · 5 months, 1 week ago

      No no no don’t stop talking to him! It really gives wrong impressions rather than stop ’annoying’ them as you put. Just talk to him normally like you would to a good friend. If you are really worried that you may be annoying him, look for cues like how he responds or his body language. (: Best of luck!

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      catieboo90 · 5 months, 1 week ago

      I can totally relate…just talk to him & explain to him what’s going on in your head.

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      what_if · 5 months, 1 week ago

      He’s not a very close friend though, we don’t talk everyday, and I only realised I still had feelings for him when I was at a party the other weekend and we talked for a while and ended up kissing and giving each other lovebites. He did kiss other girls that night and I kissed other guys, but they didn’t compare to him. He even bothered to text me the morning after, which shows he does somewhat care. But he’s friendly with everyone especially the girls; but he’s not a player, he used to be but isn’t anymore. I just don’t know how to feel or handle this situation.

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months, 1 week ago · View

    Those two letters will break me. So Ill never ask.

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    Secret posted by what_if   5 months, 1 week ago · View

    Its always the silly little things that hurt you the most.

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      secret · 5 months, 1 week ago

      so true