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    Secret posted by snorlax   7 months ago · View

    I`d rather fight this on my own. Our differences are taking their toll. You`ll finally find someone who can give you what I wish I could but I`ve been so jaded. Forget the past it wasn`t meant to be this way. I need to fight this on my own.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   7 months ago · View

    Keeping the better version because I am no longer bothered finishing it on time. Says a lot about my attitude right now.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   7 months, 2 weeks ago · View

    I show you the things I cannot bring myself to show other people. But you do not know everything that I do and even I do not know everything.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months ago · View

    Irrepressible. Irresistible. Unstoppable. You cannot slow it. You cannot placate it. It is beautiful. It is deadly. It will sweep through everything in its path. There is no wall that can hold it back. No mountain that can slow it down. It is awe inspiring in a devastating way. My pride leaves nothing untouched.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months ago · View

    Sit back and relax. Enjoy the show. You might as well. it is not like you can do anything to change it. Watch as your pride pushes him away. It is for the best. Deep down you know it is for the best.

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    snorlax commented on a secret:   8 months ago · View

    Unfortunately for me, talking about it goes against the pride that keeps me standing. Though the reciprocate offer is there if you want it.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months ago · View

    Ever have those moments or days or weeks or even months where nothing you can do or say or even think is right? When you want to tell someone but you know that you will castigate yourself even if no one else will? When you would call yourself weak or pathetic or only able to hurt people? When even the cutting and tearing open of something anything is better than the self loathing reaching out would create?

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      starskys · 8 months ago

      totally get this, here if you want to talk

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        snorlax · 8 months ago

        Unfortunately for me, talking about it goes against the pride that keeps me standing. Though the reciprocate offer is there if you want it.

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      betteroffdead · 8 months ago

      I get this, I know that not talking about it is sometimes the only way to survive.

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        solo · 8 months ago

        am stuck 4 the past 2 months and cant get out

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months ago · View

    I cannot seem to stop. What self destructive urges I posses. I hope I do not hurt him in the process.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months ago · View

    Like the realisation of love it creeps up softly behind you. Silently. It gently wraps its arms around you. Places a loving kiss on your neck and whispers sweet seductive nothings in your ear. Like love its so hard to work out when it arrived that it seems like it has always been there. Such a beautiful bitch it is. So hard to shake off its affections. This melancholy. This sorrow. This depression I suppose one would call it.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months ago · View

    I enjoy yaoi. I am not ashamed of it. If someone asked I would admit to it. Most people do not ask though. It never crosses their minds. And I see no reason to tell them. It is something to be enjoyed privately.

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      willynilly · 8 months ago

      sorry
      but what is yaoi
      meaning in the hidden part of your secret
      dont worry im not going to be nasty on your secret
      i only do that
      to the ones i need to defend my self from
      i would really like to know so i can understand

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 1 week ago · View

    I always do this. Always. Every time. Whenever they get close. Bam. Na. Not happening now darling. I cannot seem to be able to let them in. And it cuts me up inside. Probably worse than it affects them.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 1 week ago · View

    Humans are so silly. We can never be happy with what we have. We always need more of something. Or less of something. It can never be *just right*.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 1 week ago · View

    It seems that I want to tell him. I want him to know. But I do not want to say it. It sounds ridiculous. But those little hints keep finding their way into our conversations. Though of course he either never sees it or never mentions. I suspect the former more than the later.

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      yuutonash · 8 months, 1 week ago

      i know what you mean

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      redfox94 · 8 months, 1 week ago

      Same.

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      redstream99 · 8 months, 1 week ago

      agreed, people are too complicated, at least you know where you stand with animals

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    snorlax commented on a secret:   8 months, 1 week ago · View

    Me! Me! I did! That was oddly enthusiastic.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 2 weeks ago · View

    I am beginning to lose my grip on reality. It takes me longer to work out if a *memory* is real or if I simply dreamed it. And more often I am finding I am not even sure of the origin of a *memory*.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 2 weeks ago · View

    That is what will keep me going long after all other fuels have burned up. It does not create a fire. Simply enough drive to keep on keeping on. Enough desire to succeed that I will not need to rely on anyone else for anything.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 2 weeks ago · View

    That little x when he says goodbye is finally back. God I missed it so much. Such a little thing. But it always makes me so happy.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 2 weeks ago · View

    Such an aching emptiness. What a heart breaking coldness. It has not hurt. It cannot hurt. It will never hurt again.

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    Secret posted by snorlax   8 months, 3 weeks ago · View

    This sheer boredom has been a part of me for so long that I can no longer remember what it is like to have *fun*.

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    snorlax commented on a secret:   8 months, 3 weeks ago · View

    You took the words right out of my mouth.

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