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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 week, 1 day ago · View

    I used to be stronger

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 week, 1 day ago · View

    I want to feel free. I want to live spontaneously without much other than a general idea of what I am doing next. I want to LIVE. I dont want to miss the freedom that a steady job would hide from me. I WANT to be in danger like that but I cant. I cant...

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    Secret posted by emptylives   2 weeks, 6 days ago · View

    Disgusted thats what I am.

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      shannonxx · 2 weeks, 6 days ago

      Hope you’re okay lovely, right here you’re worth more xx

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    Lost on my own in this madness of a home

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      xxlovemedeadxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      Always Remember Bear, I Love You<3

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      I think you’re an amazing person, right here always xo <3

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    emptylives commented on a secret:   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    Sometimes..

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    I dont know what I want to do what I want to be. I want to do so many things.. and all of them are not stable. They arent guaranteed to provide an income and some dont even have any income. I want to be able to carry my weight but I dont want to rip myself apart in the process..

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      You could always have a back up plan sweetheart :) Or you could just go for it, i know you can do whatever you put your mind to :) x

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    emptylives commented on a secret:   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    It sure does cause me trouble.. And I guess I just have an irrational fear of speaking.. And so the list keeps piling higher..

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    emptylives commented on a secret:   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    Secret above. That’s mine.And acting too quickly, not thinking things through. Speaking irrationally whenever I do..

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    Im so incredibly lost when it comes down to talking. My words get jumbled up. All I can do is make vague references and hope they are understood. I am terrified of my own voice. I am terrified of being rejected. I am terrified of losing you. I am terrified of losing her even though I dont have her back as a friend yet.. Im a coward. I can only sit by and try to get the words right.

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      You’ll get those words bang on hon, you’re no coward :) Youre admitting you have trouble with words which is pretty brave to me, here for you and i hope you dont lose anyone because that would be a loss on both sides xo

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    Where have I gone

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      Here always hon, no matter how far you go xo

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    I sing what I write alone. The silence respects my need to hope for something to hold onto when the hopelessness sneaks up on me again. It understands and critiques the flow and the pitch and the motion of my body to the ribbons of life I created however small and brital they may be.

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      This is so honest and really shows your inner strength and beauty, here for you always, i have every faith you’ll keep hold of those ribbons :) x

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      xxlovemedeadxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      I Love You.x

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 1 week ago · View

    I dont feel as if I am aloud to speak. I feel like I am being forced into silence but not by anyone specific but by everyone. My words dont mean anything so my silence is desired. Every once in a while I let a sigh slip past my lips but other than that I am silent.

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 1 week ago

      Your words are important despite how you may feel :) Here for you always and i’ll listen to those words, promise :) x

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    emptylives commented on a secret:   1 month, 2 weeks ago · View

    Be careful. You may find that you do care. I understand you decision, just be careful with whatever you do.

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 3 weeks ago · View

    I have

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 3 weeks ago

      I hope you get your dreams and it’s okay to have fears! Everybody does! xo

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 3 weeks ago

      I hope you get your dreams and it’s okay to have fears! Everybody does! xo

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    Secret posted by emptylives   1 month, 3 weeks ago · View

    Its clear that Ill live to regret this

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      shannonxx · 1 month, 3 weeks ago

      Everybody makes mistakes lovely, they’re part of being human, always here xo

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    Secret posted by emptylives   2 months ago · View

    You were my friend. I loved you. Then I found out that you had lied. About a lot. You didnt trust me when I trusted you with everything. I dont regret ending it. I dont regret what it led to. I DO regret losing a friend. Losing someone I loved and trusted so very easily. I miss the friendship and the way things were before but not our relationship. It led me to happiness.

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      shannonxx · 2 months ago

      I’m glad your cloud had a silver lining, im sorry it had to end that way xx

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      Annie · 2 months ago

      Agree with Shannon!

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    emptylives commented on a secret:   2 months ago · View

    I have been in this situation, and your secret is almost an exact description of what happened with me. It wasn’t even a year ago that this happened to me. I, personally, ended up being with the other girl, the one who wasn’t my girlfriend. I personally feel like I made the right choice, but the circumstances are more than likely much different.

    Sort of like what Fragile said up there, you need to sort out the feelings you have for each of them. Make sure that what you’re feeling is for those people separately, the people themselves. You can’t really help your feelings, and whatever happens, happens. Talk to your girlfriend. I really don’t know what other advice to give at this exact moment, but you can always message me if you need to talk or need help.

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    Secret posted by emptylives   2 months ago · View

    You say we wont last huh? That we dont know what love is just because we are only 15 years old. That we will change and come to hate one another. You said that. You are wrong. One year and there will be many more. Today is one year and you were wrong.

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      emi_lulu · 2 months ago

      you show them!

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      Annie · 2 months ago

      You go gurl!

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      shannonxx · 2 months ago

      Congrats! Go lovely! :) xo

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    Secret posted by emptylives   2 months, 1 week ago · View

    I want to continue acting. I didnt even try out for the last school musical and it makes me feel terrible knowing I didnt even try. Being on stage putting on a new skin and rolling with it. Making it mine. It makws me feel so light and good and I long for it. I know it is not a steady or secure carrer though so I know I shouldnt pursue it even though it is all I can seem to think about right now.

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      rae · 2 months, 1 week ago

      I know how you feel honey. DO it for as long as you can ! don’t stop if it is your dream because it is just going to leave a rotting feeling in your stomach if you don’t.

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      thepuppet · 2 months ago

      Be proud to be a ”show person”!
      I know I am! :D

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      shannonxx · 2 months ago

      You should go for it at least for now :) Theres no telling where you could be in years! You take that stage and make it all yours honey! ;) xo

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    Secret posted by emptylives   2 months, 1 week ago · View

    You are a much better sister than me. My entire family loves you you know and you help us all in your own way. Im not jealous or mad or anything dont worry. I just wish they would talk to me about serious topics without leaving. I try.. But I guess Im just a bad sister in general. I should try harder..

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      xxlovemedeadxx · 2 months, 1 week ago

      Oh Honey.. You Are Not A Bad Sister. Don’t Ever Think That.

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      shannonxx · 2 months, 1 week ago

      Thats not true sweetheart :) The family wouldnt be the same without you! xx